So what?! - by Rotzfrech

So What?!

I was an extraordinary girl;

you couldn't pigeonhole me into any box.

I am a very strong FIGHTER...

I do whatever brings me joy without overthinking it.

I’ve always known: you talk a lot, but you don't actually know me—only my outward appearance.

I’ve always known: the laughter and the tears—it’s something to be deeply cherished, and a little sad, too.

I’ve always known that I’d have to admit: there are some days I’m going to miss terribly.

You never gave me a chance.

I know I gave it my absolute best.

I draw strength and love from within.

I won't let myself be taken for a fool any longer.

I will always hold onto my courage.

For it is time to reflect on what I truly want in life.

You only get one life—

even if I no longer feel like I possess it.

I know that in the past, I simply didn't give a damn; but now...

I no longer want to feel like nothing matters to me.

I suffer every day

over the things I say to people.

I let my tears flow freely;

I won't hide them anymore.

A family, a life—

it all seemed so good, until everything fell apart.

It shattered into a thousand puzzle pieces.

We all knew it was coming, deep down.

I’ve done a lot of thinking.

I want a complete fresh start.

I dream of a shared home—a community—for the rest of my life,

one that endures even after every argument.

It cuts me to the very heart. And now?

Now, everything hangs by a single thread.

Why does everything have to be so hard when it could all be so simple?

What is the point of having a brain—something that constantly urges you to think—if you don't use it?

Is it really true that I’m "known" all over Vienna? How utterly shitty is that?

It cuts me to the very heart...

And now?

Now, everything hangs by a single thread... — by ROTZFRECH